Therapy

My mood's been pretty turbulent these few weeks, so I've been eating A LOT. Poppy's been very accommodating. He bought two tubs of ice-cream after our ice-cream ban for the past year or so, and just before our trip to Cambodia, he went all the way to Haji Lane to buy the swiss rolls I've been lemming to eat. We also bought some mangoes a few weeks back, and I went hysteric with the making and eating of lots of mango sticky rice.

I've been cooking almost daily. Making and bringing my own dinners to work for the night shifts, then back home in the morning and preparing my own lunches as well. It's kind of a headache trying to decide what to buy to office everyday, so cooking a simple dinner seems to be the best solution, and it's quite a mood-soother, except for days that I'm exhausted from other chores. I secretly enjoy seeing Poppy's expressions when he tastes my food. Trust me, it didn't look very good in my recent Catherine's-Homemade-Killer-Chili experiment though. Hah.

Speaking of mood therapy, I just bought a whole lot of stuff online from Old Navy, Forever 21 and Gmarket earlier this month with the girls and my brother. I'm not looking forward to my credit card bill this month.

Wanted Needed a pair of new heels but I wasn't sure about buying heels again off the net, so I bought a pair of sandals instead. The last pair of heels I got from GoJane was the right size, but the embellishments weren't in the right place and it hurt like mad. And since Armie's helping out at Ton Ton's wedding, and she was didn't have sufficient time to shop for her shoes, I volunteered mine (since we're the same size). Passed her 3 - 4 pairs, and Poppy caught me raiding the shoe racks. Took the chance to tell him those shoes don't fit anymore, so I'm giving them to Armie. (Then pretending to worry about what shoes to wear for the weddings this month and next. Heh.)

And finally got his permission to buy a new pair when we were at the mall on Sunday! He enforces a strict one-in-one-out rule on my shoe purchase because we have already bought three new shoe racks since we moved in. Not forgetting, Mommy is constantly reminding me I should relocate my stocks from Tampines. I HAVE NO MORE SPACE!!!

On a different note, I got myself a new pair of specs on Sunday too, coz the current one's scratched and blur. Poppy shopped for it with me from Queensway or somewhere, and that's 3 - 4 years ago! The myopia on both eyes have dropped a tad (about a hundred degrees on each eye), and that was the reason why I get headaches from wearing the current specs. Another couple of hundred dollars spent, but well worth it, I suppose. Been wearing specs pretty much these days, especially since one of the eyes is really prone to swelling the past two months. Had to wear specs throughout the whole Cambodia trip. Dang.

Meanwhile, work hasn't been all that good.

And I only managed to muster my strength to clear Custard's stuff away on Sunday afternoon. Memories of her still flood my mind and eyes two months after she's passed on. I still miss her. So much.

I cherish and enjoy Poppy's presence even more than before.

But when I'm alone, all I can do, is make futile attempts to comfort myself with retail and gastronomy therapy.

While life is good, it really isn't fantastic. Maybe a change is in order. If only I could eventually manage to let go of some stuff...